Money Money Money!!!!MO-Ney!

Today was a good day. Those are few and far between. Had a good lesson, made some money, did something nice for someone, and watched a really cool documentary on Exorcism. It was quite cool. Other than that nothing really to report.
Also, Valentine's Day is coming up very soon, next Wednesday to be precise. On top of finding gifts for that I have to get gifts for both of my parents' birthday. Sheizer! (I think). Money is so dang tight! I hate money.

I'm Learning

Well, today was good. I actually got eight hours of sleep last night and I just feel rested and rejuvenated. Not quite recovered from the stomach aches though. I have ruled out that it's a bug and moved to stress. I may have like an ulcer or something. Either way, my stomach hurts and it's annoying.
We went to Surin tonight and celebrated Lindsey's birthday and it was great! Great people great food just great. I had chicken fried rice and it was fabulous. I also practiced the oodles of new music I keep receiving. Aw, I just wish I could please Dr. Mathes. I make so many mistakes. But, I guess that's why I'm learning.

Tired

I am so tired. I don't think I've been this tired all year. Not to mention I want to rip my stomach out so I don't feel so nauseated. Add to that that real food isn't making it better, I'm hungry, tired, and irritable. Maybe I have an ulcer. I don't meant to complain. I just can't help it. It's what a blog is for anyway.
Going back to my astronomy lab tonight with dim expectations. I'm pretty sure that I'm not going to be in a good mood afterwards, so I'm going to relax now and enjoy some King Arthur and maybe take a shower to relax. Might fall asleep. Hmm....
Follow up: Still traumatized from old man pat. See his ghost in my nightmares. lol

So, an old man totally felt me up at work tonight!!!! I was merely tossing the house salad for him, when he totally hits me on the backend, a good-game pat if you will. He was a crotchety old man like 70 or so and he totally molested me. I fear I will never be the same.....I am a traumatized young girl. Therapy is in store for me.

Nude with no money

It's been one of those days. My brain feels terrible, not like a headache or even sinuses, just pressure. And I'm tired. Two things tho:
1) I got an 82 on my dreaded German exam
2) I got my very first diamond bracelet from Zach
I am very excited about both. The bracelet is perfect, not too gaudy, just delicate, the way I think jewels should be..if you overdo the jewelry, you no longer shine, which is sort of the point. Just a little bit of "frosting" as Kate Hudson would say.
However, I still feel like crap. I don't know if it's sleep deprivation or I'm just relaxed and forgot what that felt like. Either way, I don't want to go to work tonight. But, I have too. I wish now that I had not offered to work. I knew I would be tired, but I am so broke right now. And we need groceries. I hate money. And clothes. We should all just go naked and have no money. There would be no more problems. Except for Darwin's Theory of Surivival of the Fittest. Hey, I'm screwed either way, so bring on the nudiness!

Oh my. Well, one thing is for sure. Our party sure was crunk. I had a lot of fun! I love it when we get to dance and hang out with all the people we work so hard with everyday. It's nice to see people at their most relaxed.
Not only was it awesome, but it makes an awesome story too. For who should show up but the cops telling us we were violating a noise ordinance. And don't you know, I hid in the basement for a good 30 minutes while Nick took care of business. I think that took every last ounce of his soberness. Ha ha. Poor Nick Cummybear. But, I'm off to eat real food with my best friends.....Yea!!! Thanks to all those who made our party wonderful last night. I love being in choir!

Ok, so we have an awesome party planned for tonight. And everyone is in a bad mood. Tempers are flaring like crazy around our happy home. We need to loosen up fo sho. Maybe after we finish the verdi tonight then we will all be a little less stressed out. I'll be sad to see it go, but still, I think we could all use a little break. I hope lots of people come and we all are in a good mood, because there's gonna be dancing and food and lots of fun! Yea man.....straight after the verdi, it's on at the Faminal House.

Perfection

Oh my. I have not posted in such a long time. I wasn't even sure if this was still around. I so rarely get on the computer. I am technologically challenged. I just type really fast.
What's going on in my life right now? So hard to say it all in a one post. It's been a hellacious week with the Verdi Requiem taking up residence in the UAB choir. It's been one long string of rehearsals one after the other. I love it though. It's right in my register and I could sing for days on it.
It's like life through music. A living, breathing representation of a person's relationship with God and the struggles we as humans go through to attain the perfection that we strive for everyday. It's a blessing that we are not held to that perfection, but forgiven by someone greater than us. I try to think of that when I get a "D" on a lab report(totally undeserved by the way) or when I get a bad tip on a table. It's nice to remember that everything will be ok.
Because let's face it. Most people walk around scared all their lives of things that might or might not happen. I've been thinking a lot about this lately, living your life on the "ifs". Especially when it comes to the future. Yet another constant worry on my mind.
I know what kind of person I want to be, but since college started, that person seems so far removed from me. I want to be a better person, and I try to be, but temptation is just so great. It weighs down on me. I feel it in every decision that I make. I fear that I have not done as good a job as I could have.
It's in these moments that I can sink my teeth into the Verdi and really get the meaning in it. "Salva me" speaks to me particularly. (Even though I do enjoy the descent into Hell via the Dies Irae) I just wish that we took more time as college students to really enjoy and relate in the meaning of the pieces we need to sing for the grade. You'd be suprised just how much more you get out of the experience.
We all deal with inadequacy. I just hope that everyone remembers the one thing that still makes the world go around and that's faith and hope in yourself. I especially need to tell myself this. I hope if anyone reads this that it brightens your day, because it has brightened mine to share it with you.